Angry little demons

What are angry little demons? Well, it is a condition to be exact. I was told by another volunteer in Delhi that this condition can take over in the peak of summer for many reasons, the main one being the heat - and boy is it hot! You cannot sleep, think or move, going outside where you think a nice breeze will help cool you doesn’t work as it feels a little bit like you are being blasted by a hairdryer and heaven forbid the wind is good enough to pick up a little of the dust as it feels like you are being sandblasted in a hot house. That is when the angry little demons start bubbling and unfortunately they do surface and when they do – woe betide the person/people that are around you.

This condition took effect last week and I was upset about everything. The fact that the spider had dared to come into my bathroom and make me afraid of going in there, the whole of Hindi language would not magically appear in my head, I had not had feedback for something, my shoes had broken, I miss everyone… the list goes on. My mum was the poor unfortunate person who got the brunt of her tear stained babbling daughter on the end of the phone line.

I then started on the ‘I am fine’, which as most people know in a woman means the opposite, until I actually am fine and then it means exactly what I say. The problem is distinguishing the difference. I am actually fine though – I just need to let off a little steam sometimes. I know I am going to get upset occasionally and it is probably more difficult for the people on the other end of the phone line rather than me as they feel helpless but the most important thing is that I pick myself up and do what I need to do to make me feel better and this usually involves biscuits!

I have been assured that the weather over the next couple of week s is only going to get hotter unless there is rain and the temperature then drops a little – I have now taken to doing rain dances on the roof every evening, hopefully that will keep the demons at bay.